Sad, Stress, Frustrated

I am sad and frustrated now. Though I've accomplished a lot this year, I just really can't escape the reality that things aren't easy. Things might not work the way we wanted them to. There are things that will really test our determination, our goals and dreams. I am now being tested in a way that I find it hard to handle. The problem, this is not really a big one, yet it is frustrating...it is tiring..for things repeatedly happen...nothing is new except from the fact that I am now out of control.

From the very start, my dream is to provide for my family. This is always my goal. I never wanted to see my mom again being slaved for other people and received unworthy amount. That's why I wanted to finished my studies so I'll be the one working. Thank God He made me accomplished it. Soon I shouldered the responsibility of having my grandma stay in our house. And sometimes letting my auntie (a special child) to be with us a part of the year. I worked hard to provide the needs...But these arent my sentiments, it is from my whole heart. But you know, there are things in life that no matter how I wanted it to happen and stay, there are still people who will make these things hard, Not to mention who it is, I am really tired with the confrontation that I had for having my lola in our side. I am really tired of it. With all the patience that I have, I tried to understand. But now, I really do not have a control on this. My Lola needs to leave our house, my poor lola. I am saddened that she has to leave and be with my uncle. I do not know what will happen to her there. It seems my achievements and dreams are being torn into pieces now. I am hopeless. But I promise, I'll get you back Lola. I will. I just need to fix somethings. As of now, i do not know were to start. as of now, I feel so down.