A friend told me that I do not need to sob because of pain. and yet I should learn from the pains and failures in life. from there I can start and make things better.
I do not know how to go on with this blog article yet I do not find myself confined with one thought...I am shattered with different thoughts and emotions. I started writing about acceptance coz I simply want to reiterate it over and over to myself....when all i want to do is to refrain my self from crying..from hurting...
There still questions on "what went wrong" yet I haven't find concrete answers or should I say, I refuse to accept what is really wrong. Well maybe...but things should be uttered to make it clear...and free from doubts...
I know I also went wrong.. But I believe it always takes two to tango...I am not the sole responsible for this. I've given my sorry. I've done my part..but I think this is what I deserve. Or else, things aren't for me now...
Bottomline, at the end of the day, I just want to make myself free from pain and so with acceptance... I just want to love more...and hopefully to someone who can love me more. Because that someone can understand me,,my flaws, my imperfections, my childishness, my sensitiveness, my expressiveness...all my negatives.
I'll wait....
i love him still...yet i really need to let go... i love you hon...
