The Way I Understand It.

I often tell myself to be patient..to be accepting...to be kind...to be loving. I often want to be like these...I often want to make my ideas of love real. I often want to live the way I learned love. I often want to do these..cause I do believe that what you saw is what you'll reap. That, if you do it that way you'll reap sweet fruits. I want to give the man I love the feeling of love that cannot be compared to anyone. I always want to let them feel that I can love them more than anyone can do. But I can't do these if they won't let me. 

In as much as I want to do lot of things, I can't insist. I do my part, but I do not insists what i want. For things are sweeter if they give/do it without any reservations or without any force. I am saddened that I haven't found the man who will make me feel that I do not need to insist myself. That they know what I want/ need even before I say it.I do not know, or maybe they just do not understand me. 

Or am I too demanding? Do I demand too much when all I ask is a purposeful time? Do I demand too much when all I want to feel are things must work the way they should? Do I demand too much when all I want is to share the most important parts of my life with the one I love?  Do I demand too much when I only want is for me to feel that I am not any other priority? Do I demand too much when all I ask is understanding? Do I demand too much when all of these shouldn't be even asked? When all of these should really be given even without asking? If ever I am, then what should be left for me?

Though love should be unconditional, love still work and bear fruits if it will be shared by two hearts bonded as one...where its beat synchronizes with each other... where every emotions shared should be fair...where love should never be asked yet be given...where it beats to give life...where both lovers receive love...

Love does not intend to change the way we live, yet it intends to voluntary change a little part of how we live because in love, you do not live on your own, you have to live to let your love one live with you... and that needs a little sacrifice. 

My heart loves a man..and when I enter a relationship, I promise to do my best...to give my time..to share my time...to do more than anyone can do for the one I love...I want things to be extra ordinary...(for that man is the most special for me)...to share a part of my life...to let him feel that he is always in my heart in whatever I do...to let him feel that I love him...for love is something not just being uttered but something being shown. 

My heart loves a man...and yet my heart longs for him...

Oh, God I ask for Your light for my way seems to be dark again. In everything, I know it is You who knows what I deserve and whom I deserve. . . Please lead me to his way.