Graduation... Seems so fulfiling to see people harvesting their years of labor for formal education. Yesterday, I attended the graduation rites of our students. I saw the overflowing joys in their faces. I saw the pride and honor that their parents had. I saw the heart warming scenario as our students handed their diplomas and congratulated them at that very stage. I know that moment will be marked in their hearts forever. 

I was in their same shoes one(1) year ago, 4 years ago, 8 years ago, 12 years ago, 18 years ago... I have attened 5 graduations in my life. Last year was the most fulfilling...graduating Cumlaude for my Masterate degree.It was something I will forever treasure for never in my wildest thought that will happen in my life....to enter and be a graduate of a prestigous university, The Royal and Pontifical University of santo Tomas. It was just a dream that came into reality. It is a gift that i will forever carry. It is an inspiration.

My college graduation was the most heart warming...same day today, 4 years ago...It was a product of  trillions of hardwork, of sacrifices, of patience, of determination, of dreams, of inspirations, of happiness,0f trust, of love, and of faith. It is a fruit of an ambition that rooted from a simple goal...to graduate and to land a job with a promise that after that, I will not let my mother work as a helper, do laundry for others, and other slavery works that cut my heart whenever I see her do these for us. It is also a dream come true for at first taking college program was still unattainable. At that very graduation day, I felt the very joy and success for I know what I achieved was not for me alone... but for my family. The good Lord gave me a bonus to still finished my baccalauriat program "with distinction." I was thankful and gratified! (modesty aside for the awards mention). I am a proud alumna of the oldest vocational school in the Far East, The Don Honorio Ventura Technological State University, because in this institution of excellence, I have fulfilled  lots of goals and have made me strive more...

Yesterday, again, I know how the remarkable event lit the flame in the hearts of these graduates, just like what it did to me. I honor DHVTSU for making things possible for less fortunate but deserving and talented students of Pampanga. Congratulations to all the graduates for making it. I wore the same shoes while you are striving the hardships. I now how it feels.  Congratulations to all the mentors (my entors also) who have made these dreams reachable..and still attainable. No matter what happened, no one can ever steal the knowledge and wisdom you laid upon us. To the administrations...and the DHVTSU as a whole, for keeping your dedication to provide the highest quality of education we can achieve over the other institutions in the province. Congratulations for the 150th years of continuous grace of quality education!

-josh

March 30, 2011

Commencement exercises...=)

Me, Myself, and I

Kulotski!

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As I write, I do not know what would be the best word that will describe what I feel. I am not happy yet I am neither sad. I just feel this blunt emotion and I do not know what to do. But my mind says, the best thing that I can do is do nothing. Let things work naturally. I should be hibernating to so much things for I have done a lot. I should be in silence for I have created a lot of noise. I should be at home for I have been into many places. I should rest for a while.

I listened to songs and yet I can't find any to suit my harmony.Maybe I am just too saturated to have one for me.  I already wrote a lot and yet I can't find the most appropriate verse to express exactly what I feel. I do not even know if writing this will really make me feel at least ok, if not fine.

I've so much problems right now that cause me to feel such things. I do not want to be sad for I know God is with me as I come into these struggles. I've no work right now. Literally, I am unemployed. I am told to be a professional and yet where am I now?  I always suffer unemployment every semestral break, Christmas break and summer break. well, some say that is the time for me to rest. I know i should, but when I look back and look at the these people who depends on me, I cannot control myself but to find it hard. My family, my lola and tita depends on me. You know what is hard at this point? I just can't find myself seating beside them because I am ashame that i cant give them what they need or I am just to afraid to hear all the things that we need and I know I can't provide them. You know what is harder? It is harder when these people ask something from you and you can't hand them any. And you know what is the hardest? It is when you hear them saying insensitive words telling me that I am nothing. Well, this is what I got after all.

Some say, I have to wait for some time for my time will come. I have to give more patience. There's no problem with me, it is just that how long will I wait for me to give my family a comfortable life? How long will I spend restless days just to provide them at least what we need.

I pray that God will light my way and show me the right path. I am almost losing hope and losing my vision for what I really want to do. I want to stay with my work, or rather find others. I want to stay here in the country because I want to stay with my family. I also want to consider going outside, for me to find a better opportunity. I just want to know what to do. I want to find myself.

Going on the other side. I am tired...of meeting people. ..of knowing them and hope that maybe one of them will be the answer to my prayer. I am interested to know some but most of the time I ended nothing  bringing with me the broken hope. Now, people come again. I am really afraid to what it might cause. I want to try but at the end of the day, I am reminded of how people betrayed my trust and how they trashed my hope easily. I am really afraid. I just wish one day, they will really find time to know me first. They will see and find me worth fighting, worth achieving and worth treasuring. I hope they will see that I am a no stronger person so they will find ways to take good care of me. You know why? Because I am almost tired taking good care of other people while nothing is left for me. I am almost tired taking good care of my self.  I am tired when all I wanted is to love and be loved.

A Sweet March 22

March 22, a sweet day for me. It's a sweet day meeting my long lost friend. He is a friend since my first year high school and that was 11 years ago! I am just happy to be with him now! Thanks to my student who took this picture during the DHVTSU summer break concert. He is Gepoy by the way, my ultimate Master in Taekwondo and Tang Soo Do...=) Till next time! yyyhhhh! vibrate!

My Sweet 24!

Birthday celebration equates to Thanks Giving celebration.a time that reminds us that we should always be thankful to God for giving us the blessings of happiness, hardwork, trials, challenges, love, and life each passing years. Thanking Him for He never left us when everyone turned their back to us. Thanking Him for the thought that he will remain with us in the coming years...

My 24th birthday is a thanksgiving celebration for all the trials I had surpassed, for all the achievements and success I had, and for the strength, faith and love that remain in me for the twenty four years of my life. This also reminds me I have to be confident that my following years will still be meaningful for I have God, my family, my relatives, and my friends all through out my journey! Thank you!

KK Talents, thank you for being with me this year. Thank you for celebrating with me. And also celebrating our anniversary which falls on the same day. (My 18th bday grouped us together). Arlene and John, though you are not here, you were felt during our skype talked. The group misses you! uwi na kayo! Verge, though you are not here, we still felt your presence through your call...(basta pasalubong namin!)

Everyone who came and made this special day more special, thank you!I love you guys!

josh

There's nothing more I can do But to love and keep loving you For love inscribed in my heart Will always be here, no matter what. If today isn't ours Then I'll wait 'till forever comes And perhaps that time we'll hold hands Never will part ways...for an endless time.

ENDLESS

There's nothing more I can do

But to love and keep loving you

For love inscribed in my heart

Will always be here, no matter what.

If today isn't ours

Then I'll wait 'till forever comes

And perhaps that time we'll hold hands

Never will part ways...for an endless time.

-josh

Halt

A gaze to the star in the calm sky

Made me think of the last time I cried

Got surprised I found a tear

A drop originated from fear.

A bit of happiness, I thought I have

But then again, I don't want to save

A bit of hope, I have enjoyed

In my heart you have employed.

A potential knife my heart might gain

From ignoring the so called pain.

But then again, I don't want to pretend

That this would soon halt to end.

by josh

Mar 3, 2011

11:53 PM

March...

March... it's my month... I'll be turning 24 this 19. And until now I do not know what to do, in this month, in my bday, and the following days....Still I bid prayers for I need strength. So help me God.

Patuloy ang pag-agos ng ilog at pag-ihip ng hangin.

Kasabay nito ang patuloy kong pagmamasid.

Patuloy ang pagpapalitan ng araw at buwan

Ngunit ako'y patuloy na napag-iiwanan.

Dama ko kung paano bumuhos ang ulan

At pagbagsak nito sa kapatagan

Dama ko ang lamig ng hangin

At pagyakap nito sa akin

Nakasanayan ko na ang pumasyal mag-isa

At tahimik na nagpaparaya

Damhin ang hiwaga ng Kanyang likha

At mayakap ang tunay na tadhana

Ako'y nagpagalagala hindi upang mawala

Kundi aking matagpuan ang itinakda

Ako'y umasa at hindi nagsawa

Dahil alam kong ako'y pinagpala.

Sa may tabing-ilog, ako'y may mga nakilala

Mga taong sadyang nagpakilala

Ngunit tulad lang sila ng tubig sa ilog

Kasama silang tinanggay at inanod.

Patuloy man ang pagdating at paglisan

Ng mga taong aking pinagkatiwalaan

Alam kong hindi iyon ang basehan

Na hindi ko sila minahal at inalagaan.

Alam kong tulad ng mga likha sa kalikasan

May dahilan ang bawat kaganapan

At sisikapin kong maintindihan

Ang masalimuot na katotohanan.

Saan man, kailan man

Panahon lang ang kayang magpatunay

Ako'y mananatili at maghihintay

Hanggang dumating ang sa aki'y laan.

josh=)

Feb 22, 2011

10:08 PM

SHIFT

In the midst of the journey

A dream becomes reality

From the gloomy dawn

To a shifting elating rise.

From the weakened chirping of birds

To the lovely serenade of the wind

From a life of withered and folded

To an ecstatic promise to hold.

From the lonely evening

To an enchanting morning.

From a lady's blurd hue

To an endless life with you.

josh

12:27 AM

Feb 24, 2010

EDSA Revolution; A Filipino Fight Towards the Rebirth of Democracy.

A Tribute to EDSA's Silver Anniversary

by: Josephine Luz de Leon

No country is perfect in all facets. Everyone struggles to develop its economy,adminsitration, policies,resources,culture and people. And yet in every fight entitled great sacrifices enclosed with enourmous challenges. 

Twenty five years ago, the Filipinos had a memorable and history changing fight against dictatorship. Who would not know this event? Who would not know EDSA Revolution? I am just 24 (soon), a year younger to this historical episode, but I've heard and learned about it since then. Filipinos became the mouth of other nations when it comes to democracy. Filipinos became famous when it comes to unity. EDSA Revolution was said to be the a battle of unified faith from people who were thirsty from freedom and who were slaved by the injustices of the Marcos administration. The revolution testified that people

when united can make a magnanimous change not only in the administration but also in the lives of every one. It also emphasized that Filipinos cared for their fellows.

I may not know every details of the EDSA Revolution but I have learned how people tied their hands and fought for freedom. I have heard from people who experienced and actively joined the battle for freedom. And that would be enough for me to say, that Filipinos know what they were fighting for, and for me to realize that Filipinos can achieve a great change if only everyone will hold hands and push each others up rather than being a crab.

Recently, Filipinos had celebrated the 25th year of EDSA Revolution to commemorate what our fellowmen carved in history. It is worthy to celebrate this for it had made a huge turn in our lives. But may I ask? What is the value of this celebration if Filipinos forget the essence of why this event happened? What would be its meaning if it will just remain in our minds for history tells us this, rather than instilling it in our hearts? What would be the future for everyone when the unity failed to bind us again now? Look at Filipinos today? Look at the people who make us believe of their innocence? Look at those people who handled our beloved country...Look at them...from the time of what we call change to the time of what we call today.What do you see? Aren't they the same crocodiles who preyed our trust? Aren't they the same malignant cells that cause the cancer of the society? Arent'y they?Look at now your neightbors, your home...your self? Are you one of those whose head remains high for doing goodness and guiltless service for fellows? or are you just like the same cause why our country do not progress?

Think... what have you done? what do you do? And what can you do? For if you have find your answer you will realize if you are a part of the solution or you are one of the problems. It is always worthy to commemorate a historical event that changed our society but it would be worthier if we come to realize the essence of its celebration.

Josh=)

Feb 27, 2010

9:08 PM