It was a cloudy day that time. The sun was there but it doesn't hurt my skin so much. I can feel its rays but the cauliflower-like clouds compliment the atmosphere. It was near to sunset time. I was sitting in a bench looking over a field. The field was wide enough to accommodate two or three teams to play football. But that day, there was only one team playing. I do not intentionally want to be there, but it was a sudden feeling that pulled me on that place. I was tired with the day's activities. I found it relaxing to take a rest for a while and have a little conversation to myself. And it went good.
Suddenly, memories flashed back.Memories from my younger years made me smile. Reminiscing the funny and crazy things that I've done during my childhood. Like playing street soccer, where I got little injuries and wounds, mainly the cause of the scars I have on my knees. I laughed when I recalled how I stole candies in our mini store and gave it to my friends, just to win them...(silly!too generous yet pathetic!) I also remembered the days when I used to climb trees with my cousins and get as many aratilis (im not sure of the spelling)as I can.
Funny, I recalled my first and only puppy love...=) Puppy love that lasted for more than a year....see.. hahah! I do not know but I may owe him for being the first cause why I write several poems. Then came a very long teenage crush. Just a crush that lasted for my whole highschool life...lol! "Oh my pretty pretty boy I love you..! " (giggle!) But that was just merely a lesson that thought me how to love with sincerity and loyalty. Well, I do not know if I should thank that experience, or if I should wish to have another. well, since I can't turn back the hands of time, I should have embrace all the lessons.
It was exactly sunset when I was reminiscing the recent things that happened in my life. I tried to look at my heart and saw many scars and some still wounds that need to be healed. Well, it made me sad for a while reminiscing the heart breaks and misfortunes but I tried to collect all the beautiful blessings that I received. I should be happy for surpassing all the trials that I had during my poorest years...It was really a struggle to finish college but all sacrifices paid off. Many would wish to achieve success but come to think of it..what is really success? For me, I believe that to achieve and receive simple blessings is already success. I do not need to be monetary well off just to be considered as such though everyone aims to have something more than the average. But well, I have to content myself once in a whiile of the things that I have to better enjoy life. It is right to aspire for more but that would be better considered as motivations but not life itself.
It was evening when I decided to go home to rest. I made another glance of the field and I just realized that the football players were already finished playing. There were only few people around the area. Just right before I leave, i imagined myself being fetched by someone special...to bring me home. But then, it was just a pure imagination. I do have rich imagination but isn't it, it is nice to live in mysteries and fantasies every once in a while? It is fine by the way, for as long it is seldom. Since that was a fantasy, I went home alone but I remain composed, determined, and faithful.
The open field remains open for people to come and go, play with it and leave as if nothing happened. But i admire the open field, that no matter how many times it was left alone, it still welcomes those who want to enjoy it.
cool down lang
Nov. 26,2010
