Ang sabi ni Ama

One day after my graduation, y family shared some words as we casually talk to each other. My father asked something and that something lead me ask him a question, "pa, what if hindi na sya bumalik? what if iwanan nya ko?" I asked these to him since he do not know what happened between us. I cried to his reply. He said, "It will be your fault if iniwan na ka nya, kasi pinagkatiwalaan mo sya. Pero alam ko namang hindi nya gagawin yon. If he is sincere to what he feels for you, he will never do that to you." He added, "I love giddy so much. He is like my son." With his responce, how will I get strength to tell him everything? How will I tell him, "Pa he just did.?"

I just wish someday even my father can move on to what happened to me. But before that, I have to take everything slowly for him. Of course, I do not want my father think bad things about him cause, he is not. Cause behind his silence I still understand his words.

Today, I am almost over him. I can say, a part of me have already moved on and will still continue to move on until the time, I won't see my self crying from his memories, until the time I'll left no tears whenever I hear about him. Until the day, I'll found myself learning to love again. Now, it is enough to say, at least I am done with the days of grieving for my heart. It is now time for me to fill and fix my broken me. He won't be here for me to fix my heart and I know it won't happen. I have to do it on my own. Though there are still pains, that is normal, but I'll do all things for me get over it.

To move on doesn't mean to forget, it just simply mean, you have to step forward towards something making your past as your strength and your learning foundation.