Today is March 6, 13 days before my birthday. Before, I used to have a count down and be excited to this special day of my life...but today, I know it is just 13 days and I'll be 23. the difference is, i am not excited. It is just you can't find way to celebrate when you know you are still grieving.
Today, from this very day...I have to accept my fate. He do not love me anymore and I have no value for him. I have to realize it. Walang taong nagmamahal ang kayang tiisin ang taong mahal nya. But he can. It hurts. it deeply hurts me. but i have to accept...HINDI NA NIYA AKO MAHAL. i have to accept with all that's left in my heart. I have to set him free. I have to set him free inside my heart.
Soon, he will replace me, and I know it will hurt more...sana ako muna ang matutong magmahal muli bago mangyari ito. because if it will be before me, baka di ko makaya. But if this will happen, I hope he can find someone who can love him more than I did. Sana alagaaan nya ang taong pinakamamahal ko...
again dhie, I still want you to be happy and if being without me will make you the happiest, I have to set you free, no matter how painful,, no matter how it will shatter my life.. This is how great my love for you. Too sad, you were not bale to realize and keep me.
Maraming salamat sa iyo sa isang taong pinasaya at pinasigla mo ang buhay ko, alam ko, kapalit nito, ilang taong paghihirap. Paalam na sa iyo at sa mga alaala ng pagmamahal. Nawa'y matupad mo lahat ng minimithi mo at sa huli'y maging masaya ka sa lahat lahat. Patunayan mo sa akin na karapat dapat nga akong bitiwan. Patunayan mong mas masaya ka ngayon.Dahil masasaktan lang lalo ako kapag naging walang saysay lang ang pagtanngap ko sa pag-alis mo. Goodbye dhie. I have to leave you now because you have left me too. I have to step away now cause you arealdy did. maraming salamat.God bless you.
