But now, all I can do is recall everything. I know its been three months and nothing changed on how I feel for him. the only thing is the reality that I have to let him go. Set him free on what will make him happy. I know that is how I love him. To give and offer him all the things that will make him happy even though I know the cost will make my heart die. I know how big the sacrifice is. No one can even imagine how great my love for him, that despite of pain , and of losing him, I still pray and wish for the best for him. I want him to realize things that he really wants to do. I want him to be free from the worries and things that he wasn't able to accomplish. I want him be proud of himself. I want him to see himself. Know himself more. And if that means, I have to give him up, I will give up myself. And that is the reason, why I let him go. ..because I love him so much.
If only he could realize that. If only he recognized my worth to his life. If only he have tried to hold on more.If only he became stronger and faithful. If only he have loved me more,.maybe we never came in this situation.
I would wish for the day I will hold his hands again. ..embrace him as if nothing happens..and kiss him to remind him of the love we really laid for each other. I would wish for the day he'll be back into my arms to feel that I am protected and shielded from worries and pains. I would wish for those days. And even if those days wont come when I am still alive, I will still be hopeful that maybe in the other life, my wishes will be granted.
