A Prayer
Dear Lord,
I have so much pains and questions now. How a love so true did ended without a
fight? How did he forget his promises? How could he throw away all the
things we have built? How could he break my heart? How could this trial fail
when You thought me how to be confident of the love we had? Please let me
know and understand all the things that are happening right now. I do not
understand how something so good can suddenly end up the way it is today. Lord,
we were so in love. It was just him and me, only the two of us, and it was
enough or let me say more than enough to bring out the best of our dreams.
Isn’t it, he was your gift to me and me to him? Isn’t it he is the answer
to my prayers? Why are You taking him away from me? Tell me where I have gone
wrong? Didn’t I kept my promise that I will take care and love him? Didn’t I
love him in all the ways I’ve learned Your love? Isn’t it I begged to You that
You’ll leave him to me? Isn’t it he was the one I asked from you? Do I not
deserve true love? Do I not deserve to feel someone fights for me? Why do you
always make me feel I am not worthy? Yes, You made me happy but soon for you to
take it away from me.
Lord, didn’t You make him realize my worth? Didn’t You include me in his plans?
Didn’t You let him realize that true love comes only once? Didn’t You let him
know that I am not asking for anything more than what he can give? Didn’t You
tell him that I am the one for him? Isn’t it that is what you told me when we
talked? That is why I never hesitate to sacrifice more? Didn’t You tell him that
I am fighting for him? Didn’t You tell him that my world will shatter if he
leaves me? Isn’t it You told him to take care of me? To love me? And to never
leave me? Didn’t You let him realize that life is worth living with someone who
loves him so much…so much more than anyone can give him? Didn’t You tell that to
him? Isn’t it those are what You told me to do for him? That is why I am still
here...Keeping my promise to You. More than anyone else, I trust you. But Lord,
why am I broken now?
How can he suddenly give me up? Am I any ordinary girl whose worth is lesser
than achievements, of dreams? Am I not enough to be reason to keep him holding
on? Does my love isn’t enough to keep fighting for? Isn’t it love conquers all?
Why these things happen now?
Please help me Lord, I really do not know what to do. I am lost. You are my way
and the only You who can bring back what was lost. I have given everything
I could and there is nothing I can give. I have done my part. I have went down
my pride and beg for his love. I kneel before you, crushed, shattered, in pain,
weak, afraid, and broken. Help me make him realize the worth of our love and of
our promises. Make him realize my worth. Please guide him. Make his path clear.
Light up his mind so he can decide clearly. Share with him more of the love I
have for him, so he can carry it everywhere he goes….make it as his strength in
his decisions. Please include me in his plans. Make him reminisce all that we
had. Make him back to me.
I offer to You my wounded heart, my broken dreams. I know You are the only way
and the One who will define us. Let me keep holding on. I surrender to You my
life, for the pain I have now is unbearable. Carry me now to Your loving hands
and let me live again with so much love and hope.
Lord, You know how much I love him. Let him always hold that. I love you Lord.
To You, I rest my case because I trust You.
