The End

It is March 31...and this day ends my birthday month! It will give me another year to wait. But better than having nothing to wait at all..heheh..Thank God for another year to wait..

In my previous posts,I have enumerated the things that I have accomplished and those that i want to achieve. I think, I'll just be redundant if I will write them again.heheh..

Tomorrow is April. I have list of things to do this month. To name some: I am preparing for the birthday of my father on April 3; excited on the graduation of Dhie on April 4; nervous on a graduation speech on April 6 (i'll be the guest speaker..hahaha..i'll proxy someone); the Holy Week!;start of summer class after the Holy Week; the blessings of PFC projects on April 18; and the rest are all tentatives...I just have to watch out...hhaha...

This will be a busy month definitely..and I know the following months too...

Anyways...I believe this blog is now my diary...and with this site, you'll be updated with so much things about me especially those who instantlly receive my posts.

Looking Backward and Forward

It’s been a while since I seriously write sensible things here. Obviously as you can see on my previous posts, I was so very focused on my birthday. It was really good. Right after my birthday diary, I had another wonderful time with my boyfriend, Gidz, as well as his family.

I spent three days and two nights in their place, compressing our schedules like having my class, celebrating despedida, the aborted badminton game with Ate Aubrey, the Divisoria tour( its my tour,,hahaha) with Gidz and Ate Aubrey, The Mass, the hospital visitation to Gidz’ Gradskul classmate, and my Monday class. I had so much fun with these days I am with him tough I am really tortured with my take home exams.

With Giddy's Family during the Despedida of Tita Grace

After that very nice weekend, it’s time to go home. And again, experience the very hot Bacolor and my room! Huh! From Monday to Wednesday, I had my tutorial class with Chime., my tutoree. It is our last week. I was so tired teaching her. We’ve been studying 3 subjects a day and the scope of their exam includes their entire lesson from the start which is equivalent to one whole book! Anyways, the exhausting days were done. I’ll miss them, definitely. I’ll also miss the daily merienda! I’ll miss the hollow blocks and the sands! (They own a hardware, that’s why) hahaha! Thanks to their Mama Che who is super kind and generous!

I'm with Chime and Chedy

I am also happy and somewhat frustrated with my grades! I’m happy with my major subjects: Calculus, Linear Algebra and Number Theory; to where I got; 1.0, 1.0, and 1.25, respectively. Though I failed to achieve my target 1.0 at Number Theory, I am still happy to know that I got the highest grade that my Prof. gave in this subject. But I am frustrated with my Educational Media and Technology grade! Its 1.5! I promised myself that I will not have that grade anymore. But it happened..huhu…! But the bottomline, I know I did m best! That will be more than enough. Thanks to all my Prof.; Prof martin, Prof balmeo, Dr. Decena, and Pro. Ramos! It's been a wonderful semester with you!

And now, I miss my classes. Hai.. I miss the Thurs-Fri-and-Sat which also allow me to see Giddy! But now, definitely, I wont be able to see him during this days..huhu..I also miss my classmates who are super corny like me! Hahaha! I was about to start an article for my planned coffee table book. But too mad that I don’t feel like writing now. I mean writing seriously..hahah… But I hope I’ll be able to write more this vacation.

with giddy during his Baccaluareate Mass at UST.

He is graduating Cumlaude! Too Proud of you!

I am looking forward for Sunday, and hopefully meet the father of Gidz, who will arrive here in RP tomorrow. Also, I have lots of weekends schedule with Gidz of course! So all my Saturdays and Sundays are occupied! And maybe I’ll include Fridays! Yo! I’ll definitely have the best summer in my entire life! Anyways,,here comes Holy Week, I am also excited because he will spend it with me here in our place. Thanks Dhie!

GIDDY

Look at this? I posted it here so diretso mo ng makita ung image sa email mo. do you like the ideA? reply ka..pwede din yan sa redcross mo

Bear Collections

Here are my bear collections! Love them so much!

My Birthday Diary

The day that I’ve been waiting to come every year is my birthday. It is so special to me and so important. This is a day which I want to celebrate with the most important persons in my life.

March 19, 2009- I started my birthday with a countdown with Ate Joi, younger sister of my bf. It is so cool and funny. I enjoyed how we tried to make the first minutes of my day so happy. I also appreciate her thoughtfulness and the way she tried to make my birthday special and valued. It means a lot.

When I wake up that morning, my mama and papa greeted me, as they used to do. Every year, the every time they wake up, they try to wake me up too just to greet me; such simple gestures that show how we value our birthdays. Every year, my birthday is well celebrated in ways that we give so much memories into.

Then, I spent the whole day waiting for the afternoon. My classmate and friend Crisriln came. Among my group of friends, she is the only one who was able to come, which I understand. All my friends were working and it so happen that it was Cris’ day off. And I was also touched with the attempt of Vergel, one of the best friends that I have since college, to surprise me; but as he said, he was the one surprised coz he never thought I am not around. (I had my Media Class in UST).

At 4PM, I left home to UST. Then, Im too sad that April forgot my birthday. Hai…

The next chapter is the celebration of my birthday at Gidz place. It is so nice. We ate palabok and rice cake, with his cousins, aunties, uncles, sister and the rest of the people in the house. I received so many gifts…nice gifts! I appreciate them so much! I also like to thank ate Aurey and Tita Benil for the thoughtfulness. I just felt so sad when I’ve learned na Gidz and his cousins will go out. But I do understand. What made me sad is that, the whole day, I’ve been waiting for the time na makikita at makakasama ko siya; I mean quality time together. Anyways, as he said, I should be flexible, I should content myself with what I had for that day. Yah right, But I hope he knows that of all the things that I had from that day, what I am after is the time I was suppose to have with him, not from the previous or following days but on my birthday. It is not “JUST A DAY.” Anyways, I really love his gift to me, the biggest bear that I had. Thank you so much!

Anyways, to sum it up, I was happy and still thankful for all the blessing I had; for the entire things I had , for the celebrations, for all the special things, and for the another year I have. May God continue to bless me always.

STUDENTS.

My students way back 2006-2007! graduating na sila sa Highschool! I taught them when they are second year highschool! It just so happened that I saw them kanina. I went to DHVCAT. wala lang.

I remember how they celebrate my birthday two years back. They are really so sweet. and I will never forget that!They game me Yullain, the pink bear. and also the first one who made me a VCD presentation. I love it!

BIRTHDAY KO NA BUKAS!

• i just dont have nothing to post...im just happy its my birthday tomorrow..
• I would like to thank God for all the blessings He gave me for the previous year...i've got a lot..good and bad, and I know everything that happened to me were all blessings which taught me how to be more focused, matured and positive. My previous year also taught me the reality of life, its kindness and rudeness...I've met and experienced a lot.. And they changed me...i think... to be a better person.

When I was 21, I was fortunate enough to be granted with scholarship and pursue my Masters degree. And I'll say,this opportunity gave me the chance to develop myself, most especially my esteem, my confidence...I've learned how to conquer my fears. And it also enhanced my personality. Thank you to ARACK for making it possible.

During this time, I've also experienced the unfair world in terms of career. but then, I should not be affected but instead used these to move forward. Besides, there are lots of windows opened after a door was closed. Better opportunities came and will still come. "It pays to be good," as Prof Galang always reminds me.

There are lot of changes in my life. And of course, the sweetest that happened to me is when I met the man who loves me and whom I also love. It is a part of my life that marks an unforgettable chapter. Dhie is the one whom I want to spend my life with.

And of course, I saw how my family support every decision I make. The way they trust me. The way they value my happiness. I am lucky for having them in my life.

I am looking forward for the next birthday that God will give me. For now, as always, I'll make my 22nd year to be another meaningful year. May God bless me.

ADVANCE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! =)

Birthday Celebration at USTGS

March 14-after my report in my Number Theory subject, I had a little advance birthday celebration with my Mathematics subjects' classmates. My three mathematics teachers attended it, Dr. Decena, Prof. Matin and Prof. Balmeo. Definitely, everyone enjoyed the foods!

Mathematics Teachers Association of the Philippines, Inc

I attended the seminar with my closest friends and co-major in USTGS. We are with Prof. Balmeo, our Linear Algebra Professor. The seminar was organized by the Mathematics Teacher Association of the Philippines, and held at De Lasalle College of St Benilde,Taft, Manila, last March 13. We enjoyed this seminar especially the afternoon part where we enjoyed solving math problems. I was too sleepy during the morning aside from that I got bored with the speakers but also I was too exhausted witht the trasportation and also from the effort of waking up early. Too kind for stephen because he waited for me and april at the USTGS because we dont know how to go in the place.hehe..it is also my first time to ride LRT..(haha..im not a manila girl thats why.)After the seminar,we went at Robinsons Place Manila. My feet were too tired when we walked more than 500 meters just to be in this place not counting the distance of our stroll inside the mall. Of course I got one remembrance here... a necklace. Bottom line, I enjoyed the presence of my friends, April, Stephen and Jhen.

can't sleep

Dear blog,

There are so many that sadden me now. They may be too narrow and low yet the point here; they upset me.

With those things that make me feel this way, the first thing is the thought that the things that are special to me seems to be ordinary. I find my self giving too much importance to the things that are special to persons close to me, maybe because I know how it feels when they value what are important to you. But I found myself hanging around, celebrating things alone. It may seem exaggerated yet, the feelings exceed like this. I would choose not to emphasize what I am referring to but the thought is clearly stated.

Second, there are so many things that you want to give yet you just really can’t provide them all. What distressed me is that, I am giving/ providing what are needed yet they still find what is missing. Same old brand new. Too tired of this.

I’ll just write down these two. Don’t want to add anymore. But of course meron pa. Anyways, I just write these things for me to have my sleep. It can’t sleep though my body is too tired of the things I did this day. I hope after writing this, I can sleep na.

special child...

I am thinking all my birthday wishes...and if I will write them all..super dami. But I rather stop doing it. It is so frustrating if I will continue....anyways, whatever i want, i'll just have them, one by one...there are times we need to satisfy ourselves with what we have and what we can only have. anyways, all I want to have on my birthday.. is that..., i want to feel special. (special child needs special treatment..heheh..joking)... Got few blogs now. Been so busy and I am not into writing now... busy preparing a lot of stuffs...

I thinking all my birthday wishes...and if I will write them all..super dami. But I rather stop doing it. It is so frustrating if I will continue....anyways, whatever i want, i'll just have them, one by one...there are times we need to satisfy ourselves with what we have and what we can only have. anyways, all I want to have on my birthday.. is that..., i want to feel special. (special child needs special treatment..heheh..joking)... Got few blogs now. Been so busy and I am not into writing now... busy preparing a lot of stuffs...

25 THINGS YOU MUST KNOW ABOUT ME (25 randoms from ate joi)

1. I am Josephine Luz Deleon and was named after St. Joseph, for my birthday falls on his feast day. My close friends call me Josh while others call me Jho, Josie, Phine, and Jophine. You may hear my “The Industrialist” family calls me Jopay or Jops. Others also call me Kitchie, Sarah and Kris (these are Filipino artist na kamukha ko daw).

2. Writing is my second world. I write a lot. I write my emotions, either happiness, angst or pains. Most of the time, I can effectively explain myself through writing. And funny, there are also times that I need to write my emotions or whatever idea first before I can say them. The bottom line here, writing is my outlet. Good thing writing is my second job. And hope to publish my own book! I am Josh and I am a writer.

3. I am a Math teacher by profession. I graduated BSecondary Education major in Mathematics at DHVCAT and currently pursuing my Masters degree, Master of Arts in Mathematics Education, at the University of Santo Tomas. To be able to touch lives not only on what I teach but also on how I cared for my students future means a lot to me. The fulfilment of a teacher isn’t measure on the salary paid but on the values, respect and appreciation of your students given to you. I am Josh, I want to inspire, and I am an educator.

4. The love that I have for my family cannot be compared to anything in this world. It is the root of my values and of whoever and whatever I am now. My family is the reason why I strive so hard and I know what I have for my family now will be the foundation for the family I want to build in the future. I am Josh and I love my family.

5. Ambitious and goal-oriented maybe these are some of the descriptions that may be associated with me. I dream a lot but I do not over dream for it is frustrating. I aim high to those I think I can possibly reach. I know my abilities and my inabilities, so from there I build my dreams. I am Josh and I aim high.

6. I want to be the president of my company; or just even have a good business that can support my family even when I want to rest from work. I want to use my skills of course I should utilize the gifts that God gave me. I am Josh and I’ll be a business woman.

7. I am fascinated with astronomy. I love to know more of the planets, the solar system and the universe. I actually made a poem about the solar system to which each characteristic was used to symbolized things as an offering to your love one. I am josh and I my thoughts can reach the other space.

8. I am a friend of many. So friendly and approachable as other says. But there are also times that I am so snub. It is not that I am but I am not just in mood of giving my precious smiles to others. heheh.. But to tell you, I can be the best friend that anyone would always want. Ask Mae, April, and my friends and they will tell you.

9. I have the killer smile. This is not a statement that came from me but to many people I have met. This maybe one of my assets. At first I am not really aware of it. But many fell in love with my smile. (I’m not trying to raise my chair, hehe). My smile looks good to me, they say and it compliments my eyes.

10. I love color blue but I am also attracted to other colors. I am not bias to blue but when I choose things, I always end up choosing blue. Blue simply symbolizes peace, and it relaxes me when I am surrounded by color blue. And also brown for you can associate it with any color especially in choosing clothes. I am Josh and I want peace.

11. I love roses and tulip. I love things in nature. I love receiving flowers and always been happy when I received them in surprise. I just can’t explain how it feels when I receive bouquet of flowers or even a single peace. Maybe because I simply feel special. I am Josh and I am sentimental.

12. I love bears! They are my collections. I have a variety of bears in my room but I want more! I dreamt of having a single room for my bears like the one I saw in bear cuddler. It is so nice! I am josh and I am simply a collector of teddy bears!

13. I love taking pictures! I always want to have a photo of the events in my life so I’ll have something to reminisce when old time comes. I value memories and the things that happen to me everyday. I believe that everything has a reason and everything is worth remembering. I am josh and join me in my pictures!

14. I sleep on the left side. Basically, I am a left handed person that is when I work, evidently in kitchen works. But I do write using my right hand. At least I can balance the use of my both hands.

15. I love singing, but I do not sound well. ( But I do sing in my bathroom. hehe) I love dancing, and I do dancing but I am not that good with it. But I am very bad in acting. Maybe I am just very conscious with how I look. (laugh) Same with I do play guitar, but again, I just know the basics.

16. I day dream of walking in the isle and marrying the man I love. And my dream wedding is like a scenario of a fairytale wedding; where I am the Cinderella and my prince is waiting for me near the altar. Hehehe..that is just day dreaming. Anyways, the important thig here is just simply marrying the man you love and the one you want to spend your life forever.

17. If there will be one accessory that will be with me everywhere I go, that will be earrings. I feel incomplete without wearing it. I love earrings but I still do not have one that will last for years. Wasn’t yet able to buy one. Sooo sad! But I’ll have that one day!

18. I love pets. I love dogs and cats. You can’t imagine me how much I cried when I lost my pets. It’s like losing love ones. I cry hard! I wish to have a breed dog or cat!

19. I am emotional and sentimental. My emotions are real. I am very transparent to whatever I feel. My emotion may be my strength and my weakness as well. But I do not care. The important is I know what I have in my heart. When I say I love you, I mean it.

20. If there will be one reason that I don’t want to ruin me is the issue of money. Anything that involves money! I don’t want to ruin my reputation, any relationship I have with friends and love one, respect, and anything with MONEY!

21. I hate people dictating what I should feel and what should I do. Guide me but not dictate me. And I hate people invading my private life and judge it as if they were all good! I value my privacy.

22. I am a very jolly person, fun to be with and can talk to you anything under the sun. But mind you, there are also times that I do not want to speak. That is when I am hungry and when I have or about to have my period. Hehe! And when I am mad, you can’t really force me to talk. I’ll just be silent rather than say words or things that I should not say.

23. I am an athletic person. And I do have an athletic built. Hai.. I gained muscles. Haha. I used to be the sprinter and bet of my college during my college years. I do play track events (dash events in particular), taekwondo, and badminton…and hope so billiards! (dhie taught me how to play it!) Hehehe! I do not play volleyball maybe because I have a traumatic experience with balls during my elementary years!

24. There are times that I find hard to appreciate those things I have and rather be frustrated to those that I don’t have. I am insecure sometimes. But its good I know how to fight my insecurities. To be insecure is bad, but there are times you just really can’t ignore it. Most of the time I need someone to tell me that he/she is lucky for having me despite of….

25. My life changed when Gideon, my Dhie, came into my life. Before, I find myself in vain; seeing my self achieving a lot yet feels empty at the end of the day. But now, I found all the reasons why life is worth living. I felt the sweetness of my bitter past. Nothing or no one can replace the happiness and love I found in him. And if God permits, I would lovely spend the rest of my life with him, and even lifetime isn’t enough. I love you my dhie!

Many firsts at My Weekend!

I had a great weekend, a good ending for

the month of February and a good start for my birthday month. I will consider this as a good Birthday treat coz i had all the fun within these times!

I experienced a lot of firsts.funny it may seem but i really do have a lot of many first times in just saturday and sunday like having been in bar(ware house 135), videoke house(redbox), badminton house, and play the billiards (and dhie taught that to me, thanks for the patience). These are just some.they were my first time because i wasnt an out goer when i am in college... To comment: Red Box is nice! a good place to enjoy singing, eating, drinking and playing billiards! While Warehouse 135 is really a high end bar where many celebrities go.

it is also the first time to drink with dhie, for him to hear me sing in videoke (though i really dont have the good voice, it just needs guts to be able to sing hehe), to eat foods which are foreign to me,,(esp the ilocano foods which were served during the bday of miguel, his cousin and my tutoree too), to have a bonding moment with ate aubrey especially when we played badminton (i enjoyed it a lot,looking forward for more games). I also had a chance to bond with his family/relatives during the sat night and sunday...sooo nice.!

And since we seldom had a chance to be together especially this time that he is working already, we had a time to discuss things and clear up all the worries and other important things. We never planned these iteneraries but it just happened that we came up being with several places with his various groups. from Phil National Red Cross and from his MA class under Dr. Lansang! (Thanks for the accomodating company!)

Bottom line, i had a very good weekends! and definitely these were great because i am with him.